LittleMissToto

My writers block is clearing up so I will upload song lyrics after all.

Well I feel like I don't get along with anyone here and I probably never will. I don't know of a way to fix this and I definitely don't know if I want to even go through with it. Maybe I'll just make another account. I don't know but I fucking give up.
Water was spilled onto my computer last night and I can't tell if its damaged or not and all of my fucking requests were on it!
I'm DONE! I don't know why I bother anymore, my computer finally gets fixed and all I needed was a new tablet but now its gone to SHIT!
I might as well just close my fucking account now. No reason to make another one anyways and I can't really just buy all of that shit until July when I turn 18.
*sits, curls up into a blanket caccoon and pouts* I'm sorry guys, I've made yet ANOTHER promise I couldn't keep. I'll be away for a while. I don't know when I'll come back or if I will anyways. You won't  be missing much though. My art is shit and I've only pissed people off here.

Bye.

Today I watched Inside out, twice. Yup. My sister is gonna buy that movie and abuse the crap out of it. This whole time I was thinking of a way to create some new characters. I know I got requests I gotta do and I am doing them, but for now I think Im a little burnt out on digital art so Imma try some traditional for a bit. I was thinking of introducing some new characters along with a new story for an old character but I dont think I got the time for it tonight. For some reason Ive gotten unnecessarily tired lately and not from being up all night, mainly through the day. Maybe Im just not eating enough, I dont know. For the songs however I dont know if that will be a go, its because I write best when I dont have dozens of people expecting music from me. Not that it really matters honestly, I just work best when I dont have a deadline I believe and that probably a really shitty habit of mine but do any of you do any better than I do?
Songs for me come from the heart and take time for creation if I want them to be any good. Just like Amy Winehouse, for her to sing her songs properly she has to feel them well for me to write and sing them properly I have to feel them. Well right now all I feel is anger, hatred and soul shattering numbness, and I dont want to write songs about that. Im done writing about that shit, Ive called out Umbriion for her telling me she forgot about me and have probably made a "your mom" joke somewhere in my new posts. Keep in mind that I have said multiple times that there are worse people than I but Ive pretty crippled the fairly small following I had but whatever dog. Im not on here to become famous or well known or some shit, Im just here because I have art I want people to see it. Not have a picasso style dick measuring contest on here and if I did some of the people on here would have me beat. If I do write a song Ill keep you guys posted but yeah Im trying to avoid my first few songs turning into 3-6 minutes about me bitching about how hard life is, which by the way bitching about life being hard is not going to make it any easier. You want change? Get off your ass and make change happen and stop expecting everyone to do it for you, but what would I know? Im a "self-important scrotum who isnt even worth the internets pee". Oh and if you got that little quote there or understood where it came from then congratulations, youve finally pulled your head out of your ass and realized that you sound like a gross piece of shit who shouldnt be around kids, like ever. No I was seriously called this in a comment on an old post thats not up anymore. I thought it was so cute that I should probably make it into a joke. Thanks mate! It gave me a good giggle!
But you know what I mean about songwriting right? Im not writing anything sad until Im ready and thats hard to do since the past 5 years of my life was nothing but sadness. So Im trying, maybe Ill write a love song, maybe I wont but trust me I will write something.
As for art itll be here soon, keep your pants on guys. I refuse to disappoint you all and that doesnt make me much of a "self-important scrotum who isnt even worth the internets pee" now does it? Sorry I had to do it again, never in my life have I found such a funny pairing of words like that. This shit put me in a great mood and I havent felt that in a while.
Please make me pee myself laughing tonight and feel free to leave something funny in the comments!

Love. A word I havent felt right using in a while. Maybe because its quite difficult to sway that type of emotion upon me without something imploding within the process. Earlier tonight my sister wrote something I couldnt really understand, it looked like she was confessing her love to someone or something. However she asked me what I thought of it and I told her "Its cute...if I were you." then she laughed and gave me a weird look and I have never been so serious in my life. In the city I lived in and the cities Ive been living in this past year I only talked to girls because all the boys wanted my phone number and my ass apparently. Im not complaining but dont expect me to be a hopeless romantic after a 50 year old man stops at a stop light, whistles at me and asks me if Id like a ride(with his 4 year old grandson in the back seat of the car). I knew it was directed towards me because I was the only one at the bus stop. There was even a time where I felt extreme pressure in my legs so bad that I couldnt walk and eventually tripped on the ground and couldnt get up. A cable installer helped me up and drove me then rest of the way home but even he was a peice of shit. He kept asking for my phone number and grabbing my hand and arm. I jumped out of the car when he tried to pass the apartments I lived in. Right before I get out the truck I reached for my bag and he grabbed my arm a little and asked for my phone number. I said I didnt have a phone and he gives me a brochure with his name and number on it and when I got up I hadnt noticed it but I hurt my arm a bit and sadly it left a scar.

The scar is in the area highlighted

That isnt THE reason why its super hard for me to show love anymore but its one of probably several good reasons. I feel bad for others who go through the same thing but for me? Ive stopped caring years ago.
So to those who Ive made angry or who just generally hate me, who the fuck cares dog?

God my teeth hurt like shit... I think thats it for now. Thanks for reading I guess.

He lived right across the way from our apartment. He plays jazz which is the genre of songs I write and he wants me to help him! Im so happy I cant breathe. Hopefully things will go well. My friend is just against him HARD too. Honestly I get that he cares about me and is always going to be there for me but THIS is something I dont just ignore. This could be what starts my career in music and (since he goes to a recording studio) singing!
HOLY SHIT THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE! What do you guys think?