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Figuring out My Sexuality by LittleMissToto Figuring out My Sexuality by LittleMissToto
So I wanted to make this my "Coming Out" Story and upload this after I came out, but I noticed that my family has been on my case lately and I dont want to explain the Bi pride pictures, the yuri shipping of my O.C Tobi and :iconask-a-ghost-prince:'s O.C Ryan, even all the Bi pride flags all over my DA account so if my family do end up taking over this account, surprised?

So this story started when I was closing in on my last year of preschool, yes I was bi that flucking early so shut up. So I was playing this game where we'd throw woodchips at each other, me and this one chick hid behind a tree. She looked sad so I asked her what was wrong. She looked at me dead in the eyes and said "I'm moving back to kenya, I'll never see you again" *sighs* I'm sorry, but out of every other country in the flucking world, you chose kenya??!!!
Hell! It would've made more sense if she had to move back to the North Pole and share hot chocolate with Santa Claus!!
But when she said that, my heart literally dropped, it didnt just skip one beat it skipped like 10 beats. I was so sad but then she put her hands on my shoulders and kissed me, then left like nothing happened.
That feeling I got, was super indescribable. I felt a sorta twitchy shocky feeling. And it oddly enough released pleasure. And I guess that could be my first kiss but at the same time I didnt know what was going on so I don't think it counts. But if it does then I must be a badass to get my first kiss at age 5.
But when I went elementary school, I was heavily bullied not because people considered me a lesbian, but for my physical appearance. I was bigger than all the other kids, they bullied me for not being able to play like them, there was even a short period of sexual harassment. In the fifth grade I was zoning out in class then I looked the group of boys playing games in the middle of the classroom. I turned around and continued to work then the boys yelled when the guy I had a crush on lost the game. What makes it more insulting was the penalty for losing was creeping behind me and grabbing my side rolls. And everyone in class just watched it happened and nobody did a damn thing about it.
I left elementary school a bit sensitive to the point where I couldnt even do P.E in front of the other kids.
Later in the year, I met a boy named Cameron. The first boy who respected the crap out of me. We even dated twice. I dumped him for good because he cheated on me with someone he didnt even love and said he forgot about me, which is the worst kind of pain.
Then I started moving around, and in my 2nd middle I met a girl named Joanna. She was bi too. I had a puppy crush on her for some time but I didnt really realize how jacked up this girl was. Dealing with drugs, sex and alcohol. If wanted to date someone like that I'd marry my GTA game!
But she had good morals, she unwillingly made me accept and be proud of my sexuality no matter who disagrees. And I did. I have amazing supportive on DA and in real life. My confidence is higher than its ever been. And all I need to do now is to come out of the closet!

I've denied my sexuality so many times that it hurts. I got my eye on a girl right now.
 I've been putting up with a several year war on sexual confusion, but at least not anymore. And Imma let you know now, coming out of the closet is a scary thing, even I'm scared to do it. But you gotta remember, this is your family, they arent going to break a coffee table over your back and disown you. And if coming out really did backfire on you, remember I'm the dorky bisexual you can come to and snuggle over the computer generated fireplace until you forgot about your family's negative response!

Thanks For Reading! I hoped this helped anybody!

---kk bai

                     Tobi Odakoe :heart:
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RuskiePolack Featured By Owner May 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Coming out to anybody is scary for me, especially to family. Fortunately, the negative responce I expected was far less than I anticipated. Though the way I went about saying it may have contributed to that (I generally don't discuss my own sexuality until it becomes relevant). I just said it, and left it at that. Life went on and continues to do so. 

My friends, however... I'm sure anybody could say this and have it sound right, but it's way the hell easier with them. It's not that my family is hostile to LGBT's, but there's really nowhere for the discussion to go. But, I'm not bothered by it. My friends are just a phone call or keyboard click away. And of course there's always DA's LGBT community if nothing else. 

From one bi to another... keep doing your thing, and be proud of it. :la-brofist: 
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Homopotamus Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I came out to my family late last year, and I have to say, it is a scary, exciting and liberating moment.
I am so glad I did it, because now I can be free to date who ever I want.
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LittleMissToto Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yeah I'm thinking about doing it this summer though
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Homopotamus Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Good!
If it feels right, do it!
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LittleMissToto Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yeah it should, every lgbt member at my highschool is rooting for me. Even the teachers!
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Homopotamus Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm so glad to hear you have so much support!!
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LittleMissToto Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I know right! Say.. who was the first person you told
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Homopotamus Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
My younger sister u v u
Her acceptance gave me the courage to tell the rest of my family.

If you can, I think you should tell only a couple at first, just to get used to it being known to family members
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LittleMissToto Featured By Owner May 25, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks man! I'm glad I just chose to accept my sexuality over lying to myself and others :)
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